"This Time" - The Complexities of Truth and Lies in Love

The song "This Time" is another that goes back away for me. It was originally recorded as part of a demo for my previous band to an entirely different melody. The lyric always meant a lot to me, and as I didn't have the rights to the original melody, I decided to put it to my own music.

As I am at heart a minimalist (I know it's not apparent at this point), I had been experimenting with the idea of creating a song that would revolve around one melodic theme throughout. The idea was to have the song build upon itself without moving off a constant progression, and from that idea the music behind "This Time" formed. Originally this music backed a very different version of "The Best Hasn't Happened Yet" from "The Lunar Age" EP, which was scrapped when it quickly became apparent it was the wrong direction for that song. I then began to fit the "This Time" lyric into the instrumental and it worked perfectly.

This was the second song, after "More Than I Do", that I gave to Chavo Villanueva to play guitar on back when I was working on the previous EP. Even though this song was pretty much flushed out before the EP sessions even started, it was sonically more expansive and I knew it had to be held back. In the end, it actually laid the ground work for how the sound for "Out of Orbit" would develop.

"This Time" was written while in a particularly turbulent relationship years ago. It's a pretty straight forward confession about lies told and received chipping away at the foundation of love. Oh, so many mistakes.

"This Time" Lyrics - by Alphanaut

I’ve been lied to and I’ve lied
I’ve been tied to and I’ve tied
I’ve been broken and I’ve broke
And shattered dreams before I awoke
And there have been centuries
When you meant more to me
But now you take the time you draw the line

You say, believe me
This day, believe me
This time, this time

You come to my defense
But it makes no difference this time
Desire is my reward
But these are treasures I cannot afford this time

And I’ve traded greater things
Than the treasures of a thousand kings
And I’ve faded like the smoke
To find that love was an unbearable joke
And there have been memories
When you meant more to me
But now you take the time you draw the line

You say, believe me
This day, believe me
This time, this time

You come to my defense
But it makes no difference this time
Desire is my reward
But these are treasures I cannot afford this time

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